June 9 - June 15, 2019

100 Days of Sunlight by Abbie Emmons - ⭐ ⭐ ⭐
Recommended: Yes!
For a warm-hearted light read (pun!), for an easy smile about falling in love, and reminder of the truth of Dumbledore's legendary words: "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."

Gorgeous cover!!!

Summary:
Tessa can't see how she'll ever get back to her old life. Primarily because she can't see after the accident. The doctors say it should come back after a few months, but doctors have been wrong before. That means months of no writing, no contact with the limited friends she had who were all online, and no happiness or light. Weston signs up to become her eyes, and try to show her the light in her darkness. Taking her on a trip through her other senses, Weston writes what she tells him to and revels in her lack of knowledge of his own disability. As for what she'll think of him if she gets her sight back, well... he'll just wait and see what to do if the time comes.

Thanks to NetGalley for a free copy in exchange for an honest review.

September 2 - September 8, 2018

The Moth by Catherine Burns and many others
So this is, as I say, the only moth I will ever love. Based on The Moth stories hosted by NPR, this is a collection of stories transcribed from the spoken ones they originated as. I have adored these stories since I stumbled upon them and looked beyond the off-putting name to fall in love. Listening to them is a treat, but I also love words. This book also features some stories that are not available in audio due to crazy circumstances of their origins (ex. one salvaged from a war-torn region that had terrible audio quality but was able to be transcribed). So I have been seriously loving these. The moth never lets me down. Even the Steve Osborne story was a good one (which I've now learned is a rarity; more from him later). The way their grouped is great too, categories like "in the trenches" and "shot through the heart," and as always, with their wide range of induced emotions. Happy tears, sad tears, and the stories that make me want to call up my sweetheart.


The Job: True Tales from the Life of a New York City Cop by Steve Osborne
My friend at work had told me about this book, which he loved, probably six months ago or so. I kept putting it off due to my never-ending list of current reads. However, after reading his story "Mug Shot" in The Moth, I decided I'd follow up and read the guy's book.

Oh my god. How much I dislike him. I could forgive that the writing isn't fantastic, since obviously he's a cop not a writer, and considering as well that many of these were originally verbally told or standalone stories, I could move beyond how many times the same joke or phrase is repeated. What I *can't* move beyond is how he treats women. I mean, this guy. He's just gross. And when I said this to my friend, he shrugged and said "That's just how guys are." I told him it still wasn't shit I wanted to hear, and that it's not necessarily how guys SHOULD be, just because the norm perpetuates something negative. So I am having a real hard time with this guy constantly talking about how he's passing time watching ladies in shorts run by, and ranking them with his buddy, and similarly pig-ish and misogynistic things to say. Couple that with aggressive conservatism, and this guy is just NOT for me. His stories might be interesting or moving to read, but when filtered through his brain and voice, I'm honestly forcing myself to continue it. We'll see if I just abandon it. When I start every new paragraph, page, and story, with my eyes narrowed in expectation of reading something that will turn me off... it gets old fast. Reading his stories are kind of making me see why my brother is constantly hating on cops a bit more....


The Last Guardian (Warcraft #3) by Jeff Grubb
WELL HOLY SMOKES. My fourth book in the Warcraft world, and my god every one is just as good as the last in a whole new way. This author is less polished than some of the others I've read, but he also used a lot of really strange archaic words to fit the era. I don't super love that, but I did love learning all these bizarre new words (cantrip, muzzy, eldritch, lapidarium, thaumaturgic... the list goes on!). Also a shoutout to my favorite description of anything: "with the sound of an egg imploding." Fascinating description. Absolutely NO IDEA what that would be.

For the story, absolutely loved it. It's rare that there's a twist or revelation that catches me off guard, but I was VERY unprepared for one of the primary explanations in this! Holy crap! It's so exciting to learn about the characters I've seen briefly, or heard an intriguing mention of. Every time I think, "Wow, I hope I get to hear that story sometime" it tends to be the next one that comes up! Wow. Yes. Love it. If you're into Azeroth at all, this series is so far holding really strong. Bringing much more depth as I play the game, as well.

September 6 - 12

Sapphique by Catherine Fisher 
(Incarceron #2)
 So I actually started this a while ago and then sort of lagged on it for a while once I go back to school. There were so many new and exciting things to read! So I dropped this when I was about 2/3 done, and actually at quite a dramatic moment (a weird habit of mine). The ending was pretty impressive though, and I was certainly fooled by the identity of Sapphique. The mysteries of the realm were finally revealed, although at a certain point in this book they weren't really so much of a secret anymore. This book had an ending that doesn't actually resolve everything prettily. There are some still-bad situations going on, and some things that are left uncertain at best. However, I tend to like those kinds of endings because they often feel more realistic (in a book about a living prison...). Overall: solid. I'm a huge fan of this two-book thing, because it was just long enough. Three books can get tiring, but the end of one book can leave you wanting more.


Okay For Now  by Gary D. Schmidt
 Though this was assigned reading for my Young Adult Literature class, it really didn't feel like it. It actually wasn't even assigned yet; I just decided to read it because it sounded good. I get why it was assigned though. I was taken by surprise with how this book handles topics like abuse at home, a war-scarred brother, and assumptions made by community members. The view of the student whose teacher's treated him terribly, didn't believe in him, and basically just assumed that he would never amount to anything was especially powerful for me (most likely due to my designs to become a teacher myself). I am able to console myself with the thought that this novel was set in the 1960s (ish), a time when attitudes and standards for teaching were significantly different. Still, the mood of the student when teachers treated him well and as an individual rather than as his brothers before him with bad reputations... it was just stunning. I know this is fiction, but it certainly represents the truth well.


The not-quite-lead-poisoning at the end caught me extremely off guard. I love the way it was handled: never explicitly stated, the reader has to infer what is going on with Lil, meaning you can never be quite sure. All you know are the statistics, which, of course, don't mean anything. (Another love: this character switch from detailing everything and a fascination with statistics to a firm and repeated declaration that statistics do not matter.) As with the other book I finished up this week, the ending leaves so much in the air. I love it. I appreciate an author who refuses to tie everything up for the reader and hold the reader's hand and say, "and then everyone got better and got married and lived happily ever after in a castle made of candy!" This is not some crazy mix of a Shakespearean fairy tale comedy.

This is real.

(She says about fiction.)

(It's still so true.)

August 30 - September 5

Angelfall by Susan Ee
I realized that the final book in this series had come out, so I decided I would re-read it! I remember liking it a lot a year or so ago when I first stumbled upon it for free on Amazon. Who would have thought a free book would be so good? (Well, know I have several examples as to why that's a wrong though! Remember The Key?) So I re-read this in about a day as I was packing up for school and such. Pretty solid even still! Glad to remember that it held up. It made me laugh aloud several times, too. :)

World After by Susan Ee (book 2)
I remembered the second book less well for whatever reason, and daaaang did it get real! This was way darker than I remembered, complete with demonic baby sisters and flesh sacrifices, and horrific mutilation and disturbing psychological issues all around. Fun times! Not to mention the horrible depressing moments. Basically: a very good follow-up to the first.

End of Days by Susan Ee (book 3)
WHOOOOOOOO FINAL STAND! This book took me to hell and back, through the back of a demon. WELL DAMN. It was heartbreaking and gave some redemption to the bad guy. I love when books force the reader/characters to look at the situation and people from different perspecitves. Why is that guy so evil and miserable? Uh, well, actually, it's because you and all his friends abandoned him to eternity (basically) in hell. So that could really kill someone's kindness and all. I was pretty impressed with the talent show scheme at the end; that was really brilliant (literally, for the characters!) and touching and fun. And horrifying, of course. Susan did not skimp on the horror in the final book at all. In fact, she even set humanity up for the true apocalypse, complete with horrifying hell-monsters that are apparently going to lurk in the depths of the world until they decide to come back. The ties to the romance plot were meh, but that's not really what I cared about with this series. It was a unique dystopian kind of book that was written before this crazy dystopian fad became a thing. And having the monsters be angels? Well, okay, that just is not something I've ever read before. I'm super impressed with this series and admire Susan Ee for contemplating agnostic angels.

We Were Liars by E. Lockhart
I've had my eye on this since early this spring and finally got around to picking it up in the few open days I had between moving back up to school and actually starting classes. Basic summary: Cadence is part of this super rich, super white family. They vacation on a private island on the east coast of the US every summer. She hangs with her cousins and a friend that she has a sort-of relationship with and they have a grand old time. But then Cadence learns that this last summer she came to consciousness on one of the small beaches of the island in just her underwear/sleepwear with a vicious head injury that kept her from remembering anything. Her family keeps her away from the island for a summer, and when she gets back no one will tell her anything. Her grandfather destroyed the old house though, and built this sad cold building of glass in its place. She slowly remembers bits and pieces of what happened that summer, like the manipulation of the adults as they tried to each win a piece of their grandfather's estate after the grandmother died a few years back. **HUGE SPOILERS** Highlight to read! Cadence remembers that she and her cousins decided to teach them a lesson about being greedy by burning down her grandfather's house and all of the things that the parents were fighting over possession of. Okay, she's pretty cool with that (which is weird). But then she also realizes that they killed two of the family dogs in that fire because they forgot to let them out of the room they had been locked in when everyone went off the island (a result of their fighting). Cadence is freaking crushed because HOLY SHIT she killed two dogs, their dogs, her dogs, she burned them alive, she's basically a terrible person. She runs through the memory of setting the fire, the plan to each take a floor of the house and douse it with gasoline, light it up, and run like hell. To ditch their gasoline-covered clothes and claim ignorance from a sheltered area of the island. She remembers that she had the first floor, the ground floor. She lit it up too fast, ran out, ditched her clothes, didn't see anyone, ran back in a panic, got badly burnt, trapped her cousins in the house from her fire on the first floor, trapped them in the house with the dogs, they died, the cousins and boyfriend died and she killed them they all burned to death in a fire with their beloved grandmother's memories and their two beloved family dogs. 

SHE KILLED HER COUSINS AND BOYFRIEND IN A FIRE.

**END SPOILERS**

Okay, so that was a lot, but I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING!! I thought the dogs and the freaking ARSON were the big twists of whoa-ness not THAT! Wow. So I cried a lot as I realized what had happened. That's some hardcore real writing right there. I LOVED that this did not in any way have a happy ending. She states that she must endure knowing now what she knows, and knowing that her family kind of has an idea of what happened even if they don't want to face it, and knowing that the drinking and grief that has invaded the family is on her. It is.

Wow.

July 19 - 25

The Heir by Kiera Cass
Well, when I found out that there was indeed a fourth book to the series, my previous comment about how it felt like there was more to the story kind of made me laugh. :-) however, when I realized it was set in the future and based about couples daughter, I was still a little like, ah. I read it though, and it was certainly different from the original series. It is largely predictable, but still entertaining enough. I will probably look for the books in the future, but not desperately.

The Key by Jennifer Anne Davis
I picked this book up from Amazon Kindle books for free while ago but never really got around to reading it. Honestly, my expectations of a free Kindle book were pretty low, but this one at least sounded slightly intriguing.

Wow.

I don't even think this book is really that groundbreaking or anything, but I freaking loved it. There were moments that I did not expect to happen, and even the romantic intrigue was different than usual in these kinds of books. And yes, there were parts that were brutally painful and unfair, and there was no consolation for that fact except to keep reading. That, right there, is a bold move for young adult novel.

Probably the most stereotypical aspect of this book is when Darmik at the end suddenly convinces himself she's playing him and gets all cold and stupid. Misunderstandings that almost seem will feel like this? That's pretty much the bread and butter of young adult novels.

 However. Ending it with the main character being hung in front of a crowd? Um, yeah, I definitely had to buy the next book.

Red by Jennifer Anne Davis
I loved the first book so much, that I stayed up really late finishing it, and woke up early to buy the second book and start reading it before work. In fact, I was enjoying reading it so much that I asked my mom to drive us into work when I usually drive us there. I crammed as much reading time into that day as I could, and when I got home, I came home and finished it. And then I bought the next book.

War by Jennifer Anne Davis
And wonderful way to wrap everything up. However, I will say that the actual ending felt very abrupt, in like the last big important hurrah was over in about 10 seconds. I suppose that might actually be more realistic, but it was almost a little underwhelming when one of your biggest enemies is just gone within a page of encountering them in the final battle (so to speak).

Holy balls, really, this whole series was just wonderful. I can't believe I now own each book and for only ten dollars total. GO! BUY THEM NOW! THE FIRST ONE IS EVEN FREE!

July 5 - 11

Brisingr by Christopher Paolini

Okay, so, somewhere in the middle of this book is where I forgot about what happened in the story, to the point where I actually had no idea (mostly) what was going to happen. It made it so exciting! And I was totally sucked into the story all over again! For example, I remembered that the lady made him a sword even though she said she wouldn't. But I totally forgot how she got around that---so clever! And the name for it, and what the name does? I was so caught off guard, you'd think I had been holding it at that moment! Anyway, really solid, and I can't wait to finish off the series (again)!

June 28 - July 4

Eldest by Christopher Paolini

Plowed through this one! I did get to the boring part about The Secret Lives of Ants that made me stop the first time I ever tried to read through this, and realized why I hated it so much: it's SOOO philosophical. Ugh. Pointless questions that can never be answered sometimes just don't need to be asked. Enjoy the mystery. Anyway, got past that and was pretty happy with the rest of the book. There honestly wasn't as much time in the elven forest as I remembered. It did have the political time with the Dwarves right before that though, so I'm sure for ten-year-old me, polotics to philosphy when I was used to magic and escapes was pretty difficult. Much better this time, though probably still not my favorite book of the series.

June 21-27

Eragon by Christopher Paolini

WHOA, I forgot how good this was! I did remember most of what happened in the story, but that doesn't make it any less good. I was also impressed by the vocabulary. There were words in there even I have only encountered once or twice, and a few I looked up! But not overdone in an Engfish, I'm-trying-too-hard kind of way either.

June 14 - 20

Eragon by Christopher Paolini
I've read this before, but it was YEAAARS ago when it first came out. I wanted to give it another go, and it was still really good! I was impressed with the vocabulary too: there were words in there I still don't know! It was pretty awesome, and I'm interested to see how I end up feeling about the second one, Eldest, since I didn't like it very much when I read it first years ago.

April 26 - May 2

Luckily...
I was able to get back on track this week, and it felt goooood. They were for school unfortunately, so they're not exactly the books I've had waiting for me on my shelf for so long, but I did choose them and they were good reads.

Love That Dog by Sharon Creech
I had to read a novel in verse for a project, and thought of this one immediately. It's a pretty popular one, and I had never read it, so I thought I would give it a try. I picked it up off the shelf at the library that evening and read it in about a half hour. I more or less knew the story, but I still enjoyed it. I think it did a pretty decent job showing the transition and reluctance people often have with poetry, and it did it in a pretty short amount of space. It seems like it would be a pretty good one to read with your kid before bed or something.

Make Lemonade by Virginia Euwer Wolff
So this is the book I chose for the actual novel-in-verse project I needed to do. I found a list on goodreads and was desperately trying to find something that wasn't 1)depressed teens or 2)love-struck teens or 3)depresssed love-struck teens. Amazingly, I did find it. Even more amazing though is that one of the quotes on the back from a reviewer was actually accurate! They never seem to help much. It more or less says that the book is interesting because it focuses not on a racial culture, but on the culture of poverty, which transcends all racial boundaries. It was an intriguing book for sure. A young girl being raised by her mother is working hard hard hard to be able to have enough money to go to college. She picks up a babysitting job for a seventeen-year-old girl named Jolly who has two young kids, about 5 and 2 years old. The narrator helps out at the home, experiences some really terrible things with this young mother, as well as some really amazing things, she tries to help, fails, succeeds... it's actually a quite well-written and moving story that feels very realistic and honest. The ending is not exactly happy, but again it's honest and realistic. It feels good. It's an optimistic, hopeful ending that made me feel ready to start my day full of an incredible load of work.

April 5 - 11

Oh dear...
I haven't done very well with the past month. I'm sure I could blame it on a whole range of things (school projects, Praxis test, being sick...), but this is basically only for me, and I'd be lying to myself, and that's pretty silly. So while I had a bit of a lapse, I feel that it was kind of inevitable, and this wasn't really so bad. I was consistent for about 6 or 7 months, which is pretty good! I *did* have drafts of my last posts, even if they were fairly scant. Anyway, here are my recent reads!!

Without You, There Is No Us: My Time with the Sons of North Korea's Elite by Suki Kim
I had put a hold on this book at the end of a long waiting list a while back when I stumbled upon it and it came available recently, so I really had to jump on it even though I was pretty busy. I'm so glad I did! I'm not sure where my recent fascination with the Koreas came from, but this book fed into it pretty well.

Suki Kim managed to score a job at a school run and funded by Christian missionaries in North Korea, despite not being exactly religious herself... and despite being a journalist, and using the time to gather information and experiences for this very book. Reading about the struggles there... well, I don't really know what to say about it. It was certainly an enlightening book, and was even more engaging for me because of the unique perspective of a teacher with her students. What a difficult situation, to be a foreigner teaching students who have been taught their whole lives to fear and hate the two very nationalities that you are! It was touching, and chilling, and funny. It was truly heartbreaking. Really, just read it for yourself, and you will be able to see all that I mean. It was dangerous every day and probably one of the most taxing experiences someone could have, but I appreciate Suki's efforts for what she was able to share with us.

March 29 - April 4

Shakespeare saved my life: ten years in solitary with the Bard by Dr. Laura Bates

I saw this book offered as an eBook through sobering called the global book club. I had no idea what that was, but it sounded like an interesting book anyway! A college professor works with prisoners to study Shakespeare, including most notably one man who had life without the possibility of speak for parole. Larry Newton had been in prisons since he was ten and went to juvi several times. Escape attempts, stabbing officers... It got pretty bad. So he had to go to solitary confinement... For a decade or more.

The story focuses mainly on them working together to create a workbook for other insured who would benefit. They make some pretty amazing insights into Shakespeare's work, and in that way I was even able to learn about some of his works that I wasn't familiar with (such as many of the historical plays that tend to get passed over in traditional education... and in my interests). It was pretty solid. Interesting to see how prisoners view Macbeth and his hallucinations after looking Duncan, his holding onto the daggers... seeing those scenes from the mind of people who have murdered was incredibly revealing. I can't believe no one had acted on that idea before. What a great payout!

Wicked by Gregory Maguire
This book has been sitting on my shelf for SO long, and during this break I finally had some time and got randomly intrigued by it once again. I picked it up and didn't stop reading until I had to stop for family events and returning to school! This is such an interesting take on a pretty well-known tale. I love the imaginative back story for Elphaba, Galinda-turned-Glinda, and Nessarose. I find myself totally drawn in to their world, with the Animals and their compelling push for equal rights! Go Doctor Dillamond! I'm constantly wondering how and IF it will line up with the version of the story I know. When will those worlds collide? When will this rebellious and strong girl colored green turn into the Wicked Witch of the West? Do I really trust Glinda all that much? And really, what the heck happened at the Philosophy Club?! That was such an unexpected scene! So not what I would associate with little Munchinklanders and Animals that are aware! How bizzarre!

The progression in this book is done extremely well. We go back to Elphaba's mother and learn about them, as well as Elphaba as a very colorful (ha!) infant. We meet Glinda, a rich girl, heading off to a ritzy boarding school in the big city. There are adulterers and places of sexual deviancy and thinly veiled insults and blatant insults and sorcery and brain washing and corruption and exploitation and poverty and starvation and bloodthirst and secret rebel societies, and, and, and...! There is SO much going on here, and I love it!! I cannot wait to finish it up, although unfortunately it's going to be a bit on hold for now because I have so many Big Things coming up!

March 22 - 28

Champion by Marie Lu
The series was interesting enough to get me through to the end, but I was kind of disappointed by the turns it took into slightly cliched territory. The big final twist was definitely a cliche... but not from the expected set of Y.A cliches. Seems like Lu looked for a surprise ending from a different genre. Interesting though, definitely unexpected. I feel like this book was less strong than the others though, like maybe the author was starting to get tired of the world and just wanted to wrap everything up.

Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
WOW, did not expect so much from this book! The big twist was a complete surprise to me, which gave the rest of my experience reading a really eerie quality since the narrator did exactly what was intended.

I don't even know how to write about it if someone hasn't read it....

The longer it's been since I've read this book the more I can appreciate it. It was surprisingly well written (surprising only because it was recently a successful movie... I'm a bit biased), and it affected me quite strongly at points, to the level where I would sometimes need to stop reading for a little while, even though I was so invested in finding out what was going to happen. This modern day murder mystery pulled me in like murder mysteries rarely do.

March 15 - 21

Prodigy by Marie Lu
Wow! Okay, this one got impressively political in a way that added a lot to the world, AND didn't bore me to tears. That's quite an achievement. If Lu had been an author in Antarctica in her own novel, she would have gained MAJOR points and probably and actual achievement from managing that. The characters' travel to outside of their own boundaries was incredibly interesting. The political landscape on a global scale was creatively imagined in ways most people ignore. It can be hard to imagine Africa as a technological mecca, and most people don't even think twice about Antarctica. That whole aspect really caught my attention.

(Note... I'm actually thinking this might have been in the next book in the series... but it was still awesome.)

March 8 - 14

Legend by Marie Lu
Yep! Finished this one. It was a pretty solidly entertaining read, even if I was able to guess most of the "big plot twists" way ahead of them ever being revealed. Still worth the read. I don't really feel like I have much to say about this one---it's a pretty standard YA dystopian novel.

Rich privileged girl, poor slum boy. One pitted against the other with an unexpected similarity. Both have lost their families and friends, and both have their beliefs shaken about things they thought they knew to be true.

Prodigy by Marie Lu
Started in on the second one, and already I have my suspicions. I'm not too far in yet, but I think I have some ideas about where this is all heading... we'll see....

March 1 - 7

Hello March! It's starting to feel like spring, even with the several feet of snow and temperatures in the teens.

Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
My goodness this kid swears a lot! It's very distracting and bothersome. If I wanted to listen to a fourteen-year-old, I'd go help out at the high school. I can say that Salinger did at least capture the voice well, but JEEZ, on a personal level it was hard to deal with and I nearly put it down every time I started again. I think it was a large part of why that relatively short book took me so long to get through.

Kind of dull. Someone in class this week used it as an example of "a book with no plot." I used Country of the Pointed Firs as my example, if you recall that one (it's in here somewhere...). I guess I agree with that argument. I think the most interesting thing about the book was the way it was a tragi-comedy. Holden puts on a face, and that is supposed to be funny (and at times it certainly is), but he is one sad boy. The world has got him down and he just hates everything except his little sister and his dead brother. The only thing he ever seems to not hate is children, which is a sign of how he views them as uncorrupted at their young ages, unlike everyone and everything else in the world (in his mind). That could be an interesting consideration of the novel, but as a simple story, it was pretty lacking. I think any depth from this book comes in discussion.

What Was She Thinking? [Notes on a Scandal] by Zoe Heller
A floaty new teacher named Sheba stumbles into a young male student's arms. Their ages and positions as teacher and pupil are obvious problems, forcing them to keep everything under wraps. The fact that Sheba has a husband and children certainly don't make things any easier. We already know that she has been exposed, and is evidently being taken care of by a friend in her time of need. How did this all happen? That's what this kind friend of Sheba is here to tell us about.

I was surprised by how much I liked this book! Maybe I'm just a sucker for teacher drama since it plays to my interests, but the characters were unexpected and their interactions even more so. The narrator felt like she was losing it a bit at the end there, and it had a distinctly creepy feeling to it that I couldn't quite place that I can't wait to discuss with everyone. The usual role reversal was refreshing, and some of the points made in the story via other characters' comments and judgments made me chuckle. It feels like a novel packed with moments that could be used for anyone's political agenda. Feminism and double standards? Definitely. To Catch a Predator-esque commentary about our children's safety? You betcha. Help services about abusive relationships? In a number of surprising ways, without a doubt.


Legend by Marie Lu
This is the same lady who recently published The Young Elites which I read a few weeks back. I didn't realize that when I bought it on sale on Google Play the other night, but I guess I've found a new author I like. This is a distinctly young adult dystopian novel, as I've been diving into quite voraciously lately (when I have time, that is). I'm very barely into this one, only a few chapters (maybe thirty pages) but I'm already quite drawn in! Stay tuned!

February 15 - 21

Break this week! And a book I've had on hold for a while had the extreme good fortune to become available this week, while I actually had time to read it!

The Young Elites by Marie Lu
This is the book I had been waiting for. It was a nice splash of YA in the midst of my 400-level English kind of readings. I powered through it in a night, and was surprised by it. It has the pretty standard lines of YA through it, but there were some aspects that had me go, "Oh! That's new!" The protagonist was abused horribly as a young girl, which isn't terribly surprising. However, she's also pretty much established as a horrifying murderer, and her magic is powered by hate and fear, both her own and others'. THAT'S pretty... grisly, I suppose, for a nice little young-adult novel. But definitely the most surprising part---

 **HUGE SPOILERS** 

was that the prince, the man they were all fighting to put back in power, the love interest even, DIES. And not in any way that lets you imagine, "Oh, maybe he's not really dead and he's just pretending for the sake of the duel!" No. This guy is gutted with a sword straight through his body, guts hanging out and everything. And not only that, but it's the main girl's fault. She attacked him in a blind terror and then his opponent totally gutted him. So... she's not doing so hot in this novel. There was an epilogue in another country though, that suggested we might see him reanimated like a zombie, albeit with some unknown yet creepy complications...I think we'll see....


Pale Fire by Vladimir Nabokov
Well, this one was for school. I thought I would really hate it, and I kind of did for a while. As I pushed through, I developed a better understanding of it though. This book is an interesting hybrid told in an unusual way. The narrator is the friend of a poet who was murdered. The friend takes it upon himself to provide explanatory notes to his friend's poem so that he can publish it posthumously. However, the narrator just turns everything into a story about his homeland and his king there, like some kind of absurdly patriotic guy who's so upset that his friend didn't write the poem about the stories the narrator told him about his homeland that he's using the poem and established author's fame to hijack it and tell his own story.

That's all true. However, it makes a little more sense when you learn through the process of the egotistical narrator's notes that

**HUGE SPOILERS**

(well, maybe not... but still.)

he's actually the king he knows so much about. It becomes obvious pretty early on, but he never actually gets to the point of expressly admitting it until the last twenty pages or so, when he finally shifts from "The king thought this" to "I couldn't believe how..." (shifts from a clearly false third-person to a more honest first-person). The ending was... odd. The parallel stories were interestingly woven though, and by the end I had a more invested interest and respect for the narrator, the story, and the actual author, Nabokov, for weaving such contrasting threads into a complementary tapestry.


The Gate Thief by Orson Scott Card
I didn't actually get much farther in this, but I did listen to some of it so I wanted to include it in here. Clearly, as you can tell from the VOLUMES I had to say about the other two books this week, I had a lot of other things on my mind. :)

February 8 - 14

Since I'm on break from school next week, I have some time to read non-school-related books! (Well, kind of.) Here's what I've got for now.

Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
I've never read this. It didn't come about in high school, and I felt like I should know it, especially if I'm going to be a teacher. My thoughts so far are that the narrator is super annoying. Does he really need to sweat so often? I know it's part of the character, which totally nails a 14-year-old boy, but jeez, does that get on my nerves. It's so unnecessary. The character, BEYOND the constant goddamns, is quite interesting and rather endearing. He's so obviously trying hard to be aloof and suave (and actually thinks he's so suave at times!) that it's just adorable and sweet to watch, even as he tries to save his nervous little face by cussing in every sentence. I'm not too far in yet, but I'm interested to see where this goes.

The Gate Thief by Orson Scott Card
I grabbed the audiobook of this, the sequel to The Lost Gate that I read/listened to over the summer. It was helpful on my 3-hour drive home for break. Stefan Rutnicky narrated again, so of course it was wonderful. There was actually a part, a part about "angry gates" from the heart-hoards of other mages, that was pretty sad and freaky, so I stopped listening that night. I didn't want those images in my head or in my dreams! It's quite interesting though. We've gone to Middlegard!! Pretty awesome. And of course all kinds of new magery are possible. I'm nervous about the friends, though... they seem like clueless high school idiots. I guess we'll see how that goes, but I sense betrayal, even if by accident, in the future.

January 11 - 17

What's on the bill:
I got the book list for my English class on unreliable narrators, and it's looking pretty solid! Expect to hear about Gone Girl, Fight Club, Pale Fire, and We Came to the End along with several others! I'm pretty excited!

The Call of Earth by Orson Scott Card
Stefan's voice reading Orson's words is a wonderful combination. The second book is holding up strong as we travel to other cities in the land and learn a bit about places outside of Basilica. The oldest brother, Elyemac (and I very well could have the spelling wrong since I've been hearing it, not seeing it--audiobook, remember?) is going absolutely bonkers. He's pretty much freaking me out, and I'm not sure how no one else is seeing it!! The charismatic new general is a delightful character though, clever and charming and deadly and completely aware that he is all of that and more. I'm quite excited to see where his plot line leads to.

After reading a bit more (well, finishing the book, really) I am absolutely delighted with the way all the loose ends came together in the end to reveal that they were all part of the same string the whole time. It was done in a very tidy and intriguing way, and I think the next book will be the most exciting yet!

Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
Well, I just couldn't stay away. I was so excited to read this that I already started it, although I'm not sure if I'm going to finish it before we start reading it in class (because I may just choose to save some of the excitement!). It's incredible to see how closely the movie really does mimic the book. The lines are almost always the exact same as in the book! I'm glad to see that both were done well. I read one time that the author of Fight Club actually said he thought the movie did a better job than the book---his own book! Anyway, the book is holding up wonderfully, and it's interesting to see all the clues to the big reveal at the end as I go through the novel. The hints are scattered so wonderfully! Marla always seems like she's nuts before you learn the truth, but then everything makes so much sense!! Oh, I can't wait to discuss this in class! I hope there are at least a few people who aren't familiar with it.

January 4 - 10

The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood
I picked this book up over the summer at a used bookstore because I was intrigued after reading the first few pages. I never got a chance to read it because I headed back up to school shortly after, and decided I would save it for this winter break. Well I finally started it, and ohmygoodness! I'm quite interested in the world. It's a very disorienting combination of old-world-ish-ness (so many hyphens!) and references to clubbing and booty shorts and whatnot. It's a mashup like no other, and I love the way the author weaves them together. The language is fantastic as well. There have been so many sentences that I just paused and re-read for the sheer joy of it. When that happens once in a book, I'm pleased. In this book, it's already happened several times, and I'm not even halfway through. I am pretty pleased.

The Memory of Earth by Orson Scott Card
I decided to give a bit more of my time to Orson Scott Card after I really enjoyed his novel The Lost Gate. I have a feeling part of that is because I listened to The Lost Gate as well as this one in audiobook, and both were read by this man with a purely magical voice, Stefan something.... I was so pleased to hear his voice start up the opening of this book! I was even more pleased as the words he read were holding up to my understanding of Card's quality. Humans have left Earth after we (inevitably) destroyed it, and set in place a machine called the Oversoul to prevent humans from destroying their new world, aptly named Harmony. This works out for some odd 40 million years, but the Oversoul wasn't supposed to have to last so long, and starts losing its power to subtly redirect humans' thoughts when they turn towards potentially disastrous things (such as war). The narration begins with the point of view of one character for a while, and slowly begins adding in sections of other characters, which keeps it really interesting. There's lots of political intrigue and mystery, which was so well done that it kept me wanting to read (hear) more. I actually listened to the whole book in a week, which surprised me, I'll be moving on the second one as soon as I can!